I recently spoke somewhere that we should all move at least five times throughout our lives. That to remain in the same region for too long unavoidably breeds complacency and apathy. To an extent, I agree, as evidenced by my moving to France directly after college, and to New York City right after that. While some long for stability, I seem to have developed a penetrating nervousnes of it. Parties change metropolis for a variety of reasons- in search of blank slates, to know-how something better, to chase love or professions. For me, there were plenty of factors, but the director reasonablenes for my wanting to move to New York was an unexplainable desire to be invisible.
I made my decision about New York when I was still abroad, so I did what any sensible adult would do and trolled Craigslist until I knew an accommodation. I even prematurely wrote a $2,500 check to a ended stranger to reserve my blot. Acquiring rational decisions has never been my specialty. Once my contract in France wrapped up, I did it. I successfully moved to one of the most expensive metropolitans in the world with no root of stable income in sight. Nice.
After just a few weeks in the concrete jungle where daydream go to die( Alicia Keys had it wrong ), “its become” dreadfully clear to me that a bachelor’s grade in journalism and French was not as marketable as I had concluded. Who knew? As a solution, my official hassle designation is currently “writer-masquerading-as-waitress”. Or perhaps it’s the other way around, I’m honestly not sure anymore. In all such cases, I don’t genuinely sentiment, because this city is still giving me what I wanted from it most: the treasured cape of invisibility. At least that’s what I had thought.
See, my latest beginning of amusement comes in the form of long, uninterrupted steps in the middle of the night, experiencing fall’s last-place few breaths while inhaling the impending winter’s snappy breeze. There’s something so beautiful to me about moving without having a end in judgment. Usually, I cross the city’s streets with the types of cozy ease that can come only from has become a nameless face, but last light, that changed.
A cab driver honked as I passed by. “Hey, Molly! I’ll give you a heave- no charge.” He was one of the people who waited outside the bar where I cultivated, tirelessly inviting each patron if they needed a go dwelling. “No, I’m okay, ” I told him. Scarcely did he know I wasn’t actually going anywhere.
This man had mistakenly ruined my gait, and in doing so, he coerced me to be pointed out that I was no longer walking unfamiliar streets or exploring unfamiliar territory. Instead, I was simply going for a walk in the quirky, comfy, quaint vicinity that had somehow be converted into my house. I approximate I wasn’t certainly a stranger anymore. And I certainly was no longer invisible.
For some reason, though, I didn’t attention.
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